why?

WHY???
why so many things happen since january
why ?
i have many new friend now
ga sheng
celvin
joanne
jonathan
chee
may ser
si qing
jia er
mi sim
yoke
zi jing
darick
afig
and more
and i also have many friend go away from me
shin ei
and other
WHY ?
why did shin ei was my friend no more ?
because i told my chee jie her things
but than my chee go find her and
told her dont not do so many things to show others
now she hated me
i really miss her but i cant talk to her or other
why ?
why did so many things happen ?
i feel like i was very mature
i dont want to be mature i wan to be childish
why =[